Dear old friend:

Dear old friend:

Sometimes I feel like I miss you, and maybe I don’t let myself to do it.

You made me so much wrong. You were my friend, one of the closest of all, and you didn’t mind to hurt me like that.

I’ve had forgive you. I don’t wish anything bad to you, the only thing I wish is lots of learning for you. I really hope life teaches you how to treat people, I hope life teaches you that is okay to make mistakes. You are not going to be right every time, we make mistakes and that is fine.

Sometimes I hope you caught yourself remembering us being inseparable and maybe asking to yourself what happened? Maybe you already realized that you started this war, and then I continued it. I’m not playing victim, but I won’t take the blame either, because I know and will always know that I would have never done something like that to you, but I’m sorry I hurt you because I know somehow I did.

A deep side of my heart still wonders how you’re doing, it really hope you’re doing well, but most of all, it hopes you had already changed, for better and for good.

Somehow, a little part of me still loves you, and I’m not going to lie to myself, it’s fine, we were the closest friends, we had a lot of moments together.

Dear old friend, I can’t leave without saying thank you. You made me strong, you gave me one of the hardest lessons in life,not everyone you are close to is your friend, and maybe I should stop calling you now a “dear old friend” of mine.

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Thinking about life.

Life isn’t always as wanted. Most of the times we wish things were different but they aren’t. I have always been ambitious, I have always been deeper that everyone else, and yeah, that sucks sometimes. Most of the times I’m misunderstood. People just don’t get me because I have different points of view of life. I’m a fighter and a warrior, I fight for what I want, I fight for what I need and I believe there is nothing wrong about it.

Nevertheless, I know life is beautiful and I’m in love with it.

The world is a place full of very interesting things, and we all look for what we think is the best. You need to believe in something if you want to be happy, otherwise you won’t have any goals and you will feel empty.

Don’t be that someone who dreams about something but never works for it. Don’t be that someone who criticize somebody else’s dreams. Don’t kill people’s happiness. Let them be.

Don’t be scared of reaching what you want, you may lose, you may fail a lot of times, but that’s what will get you to success. Because success  is not when you get it in the first try, it is when you failed lots of times but you recovered and keep going.

 

Much Love,

Firma

How can I let go?

Letting go is never easy, and it’s even harder when you love what you need to let go, but believe me it is possible.

We tend to give a lot of importance to things and people that aren’t worth it enough. And with this I’m saying that sometimes we hold on tight to small things that seem bigger than they actually are, and the worst of all, it is probably harming us.

In my own experience I have loved people so much when they don’t even deserve it, and I’m talking about friends. Friends that have told me that they would be there for me at any time and that we were going to keep the friendship forever. Words like “forever”, “never”, “true” or “real” are words that makes us feel safe, making us believe in invisible things. We can’t see it, but it feels good, do you get me? This words also makes us expect too much, and watching everything turn into another direction it’s really disappointing, but somehow some of us keep believing that those words have a real meaning, and here is when we struggle with letting go.

The question here is: How can I let go?

  • First of all, as humans we need to know our own worth. We know or at least we have an idea of what we deserve, so think about it. Is it worth it? Honestly, just answer that to yourself, stop giving excuses to stick with it, just tell yourself the truth and don’t be scared of admitting the answer you already know.
  • Second, how much damage is this causing us? Because ladies and gentleman, we all need pain to learn, but there is a limit and we need to recognize when it’s time to let go.
  • Don’t overthink. Easy to say, hard to actually do it. You must know how exhausting is overthinking, this just makes us feel stressed and anxious, it can actually bring consequences to our health. Try to relax and let it be.
  • Finally, let the time heal. It’s important for you to know that you won’t feel okay from a day to another but in some months or even weeks, depending of the circunstancies everything will be fine again. Don’t pressure yourself to feel nothing, it’s okay if you miss it, it’s okay to feel a little sad, but keep in mind that you are better without it.

It’s hard, we all know it, but we are strong enough to do it. If I did it you can do it too. This year make sure to let go of everything and everyone who doesn’t deserve a to be a part of your life. There’s too many toxic people out there, you don’t need to have them near to you, and there are a lot of problems and struggles that are making a mess in your head right now.

It’s your time to be free, it’s your time to be happy.

Let yourself get you deserve.

Much Love, –Firma

August Favorites

Hello! I know it’s a little late for favorites but I wanted to do this so badly!

So from now on I’ll be posting my favorites of the month, these will include music, movies, activities, food, products, makeup, random stuff and all of them will be in the order from the one I loved the most (1) to the one I loved but not as much as number 1.

I’m going to start with my favorite music of the month:

  1. Lifeboat – Janet Devlin
  2. Stitches – Shawn Medes
  3. In Love With a Monster – Fifth Harmony
  4. Wild Ones (Mot. & Stone Van Brooken Remix) – Bahari

Movies:

  1. Begin Again

Products:

  1. Nail Polish 105 Bare it all from Sally Hansen

I love this. I mean, it lasted my whole week, just 2 or 3 coats but it’s fine. The color is a pinky nude one and it’s really pretty. It looks so cute in my nails that I’ve been wearing this almost the whole month. It’s a nice shade and it lasts a bit more than a week so it’s perfect.

Day 15

Writing Challenge: Bullet- point your whole day

I’m gonna bullet- point yestarday because today is going to be boring.

Here we go. So basically I woke up at 9:00 am, and walked to the kitchen to prepare some pancakes. I said hello to my dog and I stayed cooking for some minutes.

After I ate my breakfast I went to my room to get ready because my mom was coming for me. We went to the funeral of a nice woman we met, it was really sad by the way.

Then, I went back home and took a shower, it was pretty great. I put on just a bit of makeup and brushed my hair.

I had luch after getting ready and then I went to school, I needed to take some History class so I just went for some hours. I needed to be there at 2:00 pm but I left home at 1:20 pm. I took my class and talked to some friends.

At 6:00 pm I went home again and cook something because I was really hungry. I made some cheesy pasta with some bacon bits, those were delicious. I took my dinner with me and looked for a movie to watch, but instead I ended up watching some episodes from my favorite show Revenge, I freaking love that show, it’s actually the second time I watch it.

After that my sister got home from work and we talked a little about our days, she had to leave again, so she was getting ready while I was watching another episode. I had a party at night but I was not feeling very good, so I decided not to go. Instead I took her to one of her friends’ house, and there was her boyfriend. I got home again super tired and washed my face, my teeth, and finally got to bed. I watched some Youtube vídeos for half an hour and finally got to sleep.

And that’s how my friday was! Thanks for reading!

Day 14

Writing Challenge: Post your favorite movies that you never get tired of watching.

1. Leap Year
Why I’m I the only one who loves this movie?! I found it so relaxing and it makes me feel comfortable whenever I watch it. It has a little of everything, it has drama, romance, comedy. It’s just lovely. My favorite ever.

2. World War Z
This is crazy and I know, don’t judge me, but I’m someone who gets scared really easy and the first time I watched this I was shaking and it scared me, okey, I know is not a horror movie, but it was so freaking real and that’s actually something I like about this. The story is so good, everything is just right, and now I love the movie.

3. The Last Song
This was my favorite movie, I got over it like 2 years ago, but I was obsessed. Every time I watch this, I admit it, I cry. I love the story, and is so sad at the end, but is one of my favorite movies ever.

And… I guess that’s it, I can’t think of anything else right now so I’m sorry.

Day 13

Writing Challenge: What are you excited about?

The new semester I’m starting after summer in college. This semester I’m taking some classes with one of my best friends from my childhood, we haven’t been together in any classes since middle school, 9th grade to be precise. I’m starting a new language which is French and I’m very excited about it! And I’m more excited to be with my friend at this class. Also I’m excited of all the new things I’ll be learning about my career which is Fashion Design. Can’t wait to get back to school! (Crazy, isn’t it?)

Photography Challenge: Cannot live without.

Dogs. This photo isn’t mine, but I love dogs, really, a world without dogs would be the saddest.

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Day 12

Writing Challenge: Write about the blessings in your life.

My blessings? My whole life is a blessing. My mistakes, the good times, my family, my friends, my dog, the food, the bad people. Everything has taught me something, and I think that the fact that I can learn something from anyone or anything is a blessing.

I feel blessed because I know I have talent in the things I love to do. I feel blessed because I’ve got the best mom in the whole world, also I’ve got an older sister and she’s amazing. My little brother that is not that little anymore, he’s my best friend. My dad, even if I argue a lot with him, he’s been nice to my mom since they met, and somehow I know he loves me. My dog, he’s the best dog I could ever own, really, he’s adorable and nice to people and to other dogs, but at the same time he’s protective.

My friends, because even if we don’t see each other for months the friendship stays there, and at least I know I have someone. We had a lot of arguments in the past, but there’s something that is keeping us together.

All the good times I spent with the people I love. I feel blessed because I had the chance to meet my grandma, I lost her a year ago and that makes me feel sad, but she was there for me while she was alive and she loved me as much as I loved her.

My mistakes, they aren’t exactly a blessing but I had learn a lot from them, and all those things I learnt I feel them as blessings.

I think we can see things how we want to see them. I know all those things are blessings even though some of them make me feel bad.

Day 11

Writing Challenge: Something you always think “What if…” About.

I don’t think this always but I do it very often. I think “What if I wouldn’t have moved out from Chandler. What if I have stayed?”.

I think that my life would be very different now, I’m not sure how it would be, maybe worse, maybe better. I’m okay with the way I’m living today, but I would love to see the friends I would have made, or the school. Is not something that consumes me, it’s just curiosity.

Photography Challenge: Something Blue

The sky, because… Why not?

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Day 10

Writing Challenge: Write about something for which you feel strongly.

I feel strongly about a lot of things, maybe I should say I feel strongly about myself. I mean, I’m not perfect and I know it, and I live with that and accept it. I believe that makes me stronger.

Maybe I’m not the smartest, but I know I’m not a fool. I know I’m not the prettiest but I’m fine with the way I look. I know I’m not the most talented person, but I do have a lot of talent with the things I love to do. I won’t care if people do not agree with me because I know that my own opinion is the most important opinion I should ever care, and that’s how it is for me. Who cares if people think I’m wrong? I know I’m right in the way I think of me, because nobody knows me better that I do.

I feel strongly because I’m capable to do a lot of things. I can draw beautiful things, or at least I like them. I mean, I know my drawings aren’t the best, I still can improve a lot, but you know what? Not everybody can do it, and I can, and I feel strongly about it. I can write my own songs an make my own music, and is the same thing. Not everyone is born with the talent and the patience, and I do. I can cook, I can bake, I can sing, I can dance. There a lot of things that I can do and I’m blessed with that.

I’m happy, maybe I don’t smile the whole time, but I have learnt a lot these last years, and every bad experience has taught me to be stronger and not just to survive, but how to actually live.

I know I’m not rich, but who needs the money if you’re not happy with the way you’re living?

I feel strongly about myself, I feel strongly about my life. Because I know I’ve been blessed this whole time with every single little thing. And I’m happy, and I think that happiness make me stronger everyday.

Photography Challenge: Childhood memory.

My heart melted when I saw this again. My childhood (crying) my sister and I use to paint our nails with the design that this kit had, and we never got to make our nails look alike as the pictures of the magazine showed.

My aunt gave us this kit when my sister was like 8 and I was like 6.. My childhood was pretty awesome, I think I had the traditional American childhood, and yes, I can say I miss those times.

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